Something Worse
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MatureOngoing<5 mins
Last published Mon, Aug 27, 2018
I look into the mirror to see tired dull eyes staring back at me, I offer myself a weak smile as I take of my clothes and step slowly into the bathtub. Its the one place where my tears go completely unnoticed. No pills and no pain.
I take a deep breath as I lower myself down further into the water, completely submerging myself. The voices stop. Now all that can be heard is the sound of water dripping from the tap.
I think about the funeral. About how I'll never see her again. About how I didn't get to say goodbye...
I don't know how long I've been in the bath now. I can't open my eyes and I can't move my body...
Its cold and I can't breathe.
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