Fake love

Recently i've been feeling a wreck and i had a breakdown like two days ago, so here it is the result of the mess that is my mind. Fake love is mostly 'bout destroying yourself, hiddin' yourself, shuting yourself in order to make someone else; i wouldn't say "happy" but i guess, to "balance" someone who's not stable and it needs that type of "attention" and "deterioration" of the others, (stms not conscious) to support 'emselves emotionally and mentally. It's basically 'bout how you couldn't be yourself 'round someone 'cause you weren't allowed to; how you had to fake your emotions, silence your thoughts in order to survive in a certain enviroment and be accepted somehow by people 'round you. It's basically growing up fast and in a very harsh way. In the end it's fake love because you had to create this persona, you had to basically "ignore" yourself completely, and put everything aside to balance the other person, who you gave yourself up for.
I have no idea if this makes sense but i don't either so chu ~