Thoughts of Disburbance
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These are works I wrote during my Sophomore and Junior years of high school.
They are not the typical teenage writings but instead focus on the torment I was experiencing within that time.
The story has heavy themes of mental illness and some heavy language.
This is MY work and my work alone. If I find something that seems much too similar I will not be a happy person. I don't give anyone permission and if someone wants to use my writings for some reason please come to me first.
Read at your own risk.
(Yes in case any one recognizes it my deleted account was deeper_thoughts)
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