"No fucking body needs to know what happened last night!" Ky growled at me "keep it like that". I was filled with hurt and confusion and frustration and jealousy. Why does she get to walk away from this without catching any feelings ?! I kissed my best friend. One kiss was all it took and now I can't get us spending the rest of our lives together out of my head. She'll never want me though she likes females who wear makeup and weave and leggings and crop tops and giggle and squill. I am just like her . We wear masculine clothes, I have dreads, I have a few tattoos I don't giggle I don't make my voice high pitch I'm not all sweet and girly. "Yeah." I said swiftly avoiding eye contact. It's almost like she is Medusa I was terrified that if I looked her in the eyes again I'd fall deeper in love. That's how I ended up kissing her in the first place .