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I'm Sorry (Watty Nominated 2019)

GirlsDeadMonsterxx

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Reads 6,033
Votes 677
Parts 38
Time 4h 11m

GirlsDeadMonsterxx

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"I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for being so emotional all the time. I'm sorry for hurting myself the way i do. I'm sorry for pushing everyone away. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for making you hate me. I'm sorry for being here. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for being the way i am. I'm sorry for being me."

Amelia Cunningham.

Epitome of Social Outcast.

No friends.

Just her trusty diary and occasional panic attacks. She is the perfect student, perfect daughter. She smiles like the sun shines down just for her, but nobody knows how broken she really is. Nobody sees the cracks and cuts beneath the beautiful facade she puts up.

Nobody but Nikolai.

And he might just be able to save her from herself. Because he believes that he's been given a second chance to save someone like her for a reason.

And he would make sure he saves her no matter what.All Rights Reserved

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"Amelia" by it_will_be_okay_

Amelia Morgan Montgomery was never okay. She hated herself for saying so, but it was true. Her addiction was bad for her. Her negativity was bad for her. Her lack of faith was bad for her. Amelia just wasn't good to herself. Thankfully, she always had Arizona. "You'll be okay." was Arizona's motto for life and it made Amelia want to be a part of it. But when Arizona doesn't wake up after a traumatic incident, Amelia must learn to trust someone new or perish beneath the weight of her own insecurities. In this story of life, death, love, and hate, "Amelia" shows us that hope resides in the most wonderful and odd places and it just takes a watchful eye and a open mind to find it.

To be in love is like.... by mattdillonzwifey116

This is my first story sooo🤨 He was cold, ruthless, and killed. There was no doubt that people feared him, he was the mafia don for crying out loud, yes although he had looks that killed he was so dangerously handsome but some people thought that he wasn't human for how evil he was, but someone in particular caught his eye, someone that...changed him, Amelia. She was a shy stuttering mess cause of all the trauma he parents caused, but she made it seem like everything was fine, she was nice. Gorgeous too, one look at her and her parents you would think to yourself "little miss perfect and her perfect family" yes they were very wealthy, that doesn't mean that she had a perfect life, it was quite the opposite really. ... "Damon! What did you do!" I cried, my heart sunk, I've never felt so hurt. "Do you not understand what they did to you Amelia!" Damon shouted. I've never felt so many strong negative emotions, but I couldn't stop loving him. He saved me from the monsters that I loved, and I hated him for it. But at the same time I loved him more than anything, he saved me ⚠️WARNING⚠️- contains smut, violence, strong words, abuse, substance, drugs!!! Don't steal my book, it's plagiarism and it's wrong.

The Smile She Gives You by Juliaaa_k

"I can't do this anymore", I whisper, a single tear rolling down my cheek. I am looking at the floor and try desperately to keep my voice steady. "I gave my best this term. I really did. I studied more than ever, trained harder, tried my best with friends and family... I gave everything I have and I did not give up. But it's not working. It's just not working... I just cannot do it anymore... I cannot do any of it... I- I-... I just want to-" The tears start flowing faster now as my voice breaks. My whole body is quivering and I feel small and vulnerable like I have always been in the past couple of months. But now something is different. A warm hand touches my shoulder, showing me that I am not alone anymore. Astoria Wells is a senior high school student studying by the IB diploma program at a prestigious school in London. She trains in an elite swim team in Islington and is close to being accepted into the London Roar Academy. The coming year is extremely important to Astoria. However, as fate would have it, it's not going quite as planned. Astoria finds herself facing many challenges. Suddenly her everyday life starts breaking apart and she plunges into a deep abyss. It's pitch black. There is no light in sight. The girl is overwhelmed with frustration, suffering, and despair. This is a journey through dark valleys and obscure caves. But it is also a path of self-discovery and healing. Yes, her smile fades... but it reappears again and changes her forever.

Open up (18+ Only) by RENOl_ENOLA

A 16 years old loner girl paints a perfect picture of her life,never had a best friend or anyone to talk about her messed up life apart from her now gone sister gets to work on a school project and get very close with her group mates than she expected and she feels the need to get out of her comfort zone until she realizes that one of the reasons they got close was to know how she got wrist marks while she paints a perfect picture for her so that her peers to think she's okay and perfect but is she really okay? Is the image she's painting for everyone to see true? And what happens when life tries to kill and finds new realizations and truth about her own life Will she ever be able to face her fears and ever open up even after she finds out about why they got close to her? IMPORTANT "Throughout the book there will be some mistakes and do correct when necessary" Please DO NOT copy any poem based on the moon or anything else There maybe some errors and everyone is allowed to freedom of speech. #thandiwegrace87@gmail.com

Dawn of Kleftis by Skaursgaurd

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This Love: Spencer Reid by spencerogers

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Beautifully Painted by adaline_meadows

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𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐑𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐃𝐞𝐞𝐩 by f33lingsforfiction

Bonnie and her seven brothers lives changed forever, after the sudden and tragic death of Bonnies' parents, eight years ago. They had to find a way to survive and make ends meet, staying with their uncle and cousins until her oldest brother, Alexander could become their legal guardian. Bonnie has never really 'loved' herself. When she was younger, she would always pick out something about her she didn't like. Whether it was a bruise on her arm, or her slightly disheveled hair, she would be upset and unhappy with her appearance. She has always craved to be liked, loved and accepted. She's now 14 and is starting her first year as a freshman at high school. Though high school isn't going to be easy like it was for her popular, loud brothers. Jealousy. Heartbreak. Bullies. Pressure. Judgement. Adapting to a new change is hard. Bonnie can't quite take it, she gets overwhelmed, and her brain feels too 'busy'. She can't help feeling what it would be like if she wasn't there or if she stayed silent, nobody would notice. She doesn't crave to be a popular girl, or to be eye candy for the boys, she just wants to be known as 'pretty' and liked. Her worst nightmare is to be known as the far girl, or the ugly one. This need becomes overwhelming, and soon her body shuts down, and her mental health plummets. She does some things, things she will regret in the future yet in the moment cures her need to feel alive, it brings satisfaction. Will her older brothers be able to save her? What happens when it all gets too much? They might be able to save her from other people, but can they save her from herself?... TW: • Self harm • Eating disorders ( Bulimia and Anorexia ) • Mentions of abuse and sa. • Suicide. (MATURE RATING) enjoy reading, jemima xoxo

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Faith by hailythewriter

Working for a rich family like the Thompson's, knowing that she was just like them once was hard for Amelia. The fact that she now had nothing left after losing her money, her friends, her boyfriend, her parents and her life caused Amelia to have no other choice but to accept her fate as a maid. She made the best of it, she made friends who always managed to put a smile on her face if only for a minute. It all changed for Amelia when a figure of her past slides it's way back into her life so suddenly that she didn't even know real from fake. It was too much for her and it was blamed all on faith. Faith she had to choose from. Ignore it, run and hide again or face it and fix the past. Suddenly the future wasn't so simple and predictable as Amelia thought it was, she couldn't even see into tomorrow. Would she run again or would she take the bull by it's horns and think of it as a second chance of happiness? She couldn't even see happiness in her future, how would she survive?

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"Amelia"

Amelia Morgan Montgomery was never okay. She hated herself for saying so, but it was true. Her addiction was bad for her. Her negativity was bad for her. Her lack of faith was bad for her. Amelia just wasn't good to herself. Thankfully, she always had Arizona. "You'll be okay." was Arizona's motto for life and it made Amelia want to be a part of it. But when Arizona doesn't wake up after a traumatic incident, Amelia must learn to trust someone new or perish beneath the weight of her own insecurities. In this story of life, death, love, and hate, "Amelia" shows us that hope resides in the most wonderful and odd places and it just takes a watchful eye and a open mind to find it.