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I'm Sorry (Watty Nominated 2019)

GirlsDeadMonsterxx

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Reads 5,622
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Parts 38
Time 4h 11m

GirlsDeadMonsterxx

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"I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for being so emotional all the time. I'm sorry for hurting myself the way i do. I'm sorry for pushing everyone away. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for making you hate me. I'm sorry for being here. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for being the way i am. I'm sorry for being me."

Amelia Cunningham.

Epitome of Social Outcast.

No friends.

Just her trusty diary and occasional panic attacks. She is the perfect student, perfect daughter. She smiles like the sun shines down just for her, but nobody knows how broken she really is. Nobody sees the cracks and cuts beneath the beautiful facade she puts up.

Nobody but Nikolai.

And he might just be able to save her from herself. Because he believes that he's been given a second chance to save someone like her for a reason.

And he would make sure he saves her no matter what.All Rights Reserved

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