"I dont love you!" Thomas yelled, dropping the sweet act. "All of this?! It was a set up! All I needed was information, when and where your next raid was. The police patterns and what they looked for. You never...you never meant anything to me!"
I stared up at him, tears collecting under my eyes.
"But...but you..."
Thomas reached for me.
"Alexander I'm so sor-"
I took a step back, balling my fists.
If this was a set up, then that meant I knew nothing about the man in my house.
That...that made him a threat.
"Leave."
Thomas glanced at my face, down to my hands, and back up to meet my eyes. Some sort of...acceptance falling over his features.
"I'll see you around, Lex."
I shook my head, biting my lip.
"Hopefully not. Cause after this-" I pursed my lips as I stared Thomas down. "-after this. You are once again one of the most wanted men in the city. I will have no choice but to turn you in."
Thomas nodded, turning towards the door.
"Goodbye, Alexander."
I stared at his back, now letting the tears stream freely down my face. I wasn't going to say goodbye. I couldn't, because that would mean I had accepted letting him go...and I hadn't.
He sighed and opened the door, walking out. Before the door completely shut though, he turned to me, but only for half a second.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
The door clicked close and I squeezed my eyes shut, allowing a small sob to escape my lips.
"I am too..."
Everything we had done together, everything we had been through.... how did I end up here?
When the quiet college student Alexander Hamilton arrives at Kings College, he automatically feels like something was gonna go completely wrong. Similar to most things in the young boy's life. Unfortunately, his suspicions were correct. He found out he had to share a dorm with none other than his enemy from high school, Thomas Jefferson. Thomas had bullied Alex countless times during their senior year of high school, (when Alex transferred,) and Alex hadn't gotten over it when he saw him again. I mean, who would be all cool with their roomie that made them cut themselves? But anyways, over time, Alex notices that Thomas isn't the basic bully that he seems, and there's a lot more to him that what he previously saw. And the more of Thomas he saw, the more he started to love him. Would Thomas return those feelings? Or would he make Alex's life a living hell for confessing his feelings?
(DISCLAIMER!! I was 11 or 12 when I wrote this and had no grasp on the proper language and behavior for fanfic. I said a lot of inappropriate stuff in this book, and I have altered what I could in light of becoming older and recovering from the really awful experience that made me act out the way I did. Some parts are important to the story, so I can't erase them. But I will put trigger warnings for almost smut and self-h*rm. And maybe some stereotypes and insensitive language, as I was uneducated about lgbtq and how it can be appropriately represented by a straight woman. To anyone I've made uneasy in any way, I'm sorry. I was a real annoying and inappropriate writer. I've been a lot more friendly about my books since this, and my family and friends have helped me see how mentally messed up I was when I was writing this. I feel sick to my stomach thinking I once wrote like this and conducted myself in this manner. Please forgive me. I've learned a lot in the four years since I wrote this. Ily all, and happy reading <3)