the year was 2008. I was best friends with ryan ross co-creater of his band, Panic! At the Disco, along with me and our other friend, spencer smith. there were others in the band, but they were all of either ryan or spencers friends. one guy stuck out to me, though. the lead singer of our band. I didnt really care about the others, they all blended together. but brendon urie though. he was different. he was adorable when he smiled, he was hot when he smirked. he was cute when he giggled, he was hot when he laughed. he was just everything any girl could ask for! - - - its now 2018. ryan left the band years ago and wont talk to me or brendon anymore. spencer left, dallon left, jon left, and I left. yes, I left the band that contained the man I loved over anything. my mother was sick with cancer, so I couldnt take care of her and tour, so I quit mid-tour. there was also no way that I could ever be with brendon ever because he is happily married to his wife sarah. he even made me help him write songs about her. what happened when he called me at 3 am one morning drunk and crying over sarah leaving him?