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I Loved You Blindly [Complete]

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'Accidents happen'. That's what people say. 
Yet, some accidents take away from us more than others. 

Ethan had it all. Everything was lined up in front of him. Popularity, looks, friends, a hot girlfriend and a promised future in football. In one incident that resulted in a horrible accident, he lost it all. The best friend, the girlfriend, the planned future and his sight. Fighting through darkness and depression, he built high walls that kept everyone out. 

Skye suffered loss too, but she kept strong for the sake of her little brother, Matt. With her aunt and brother, leaving home and moving to a new place seemed like the perfect solution. A new start that they all needed. 

Skye's plan was to blend in and keep to herself. Well, not the easiest task when it was obvious as daylight that you were the new girl at school. Especially when she, literally, bumped into Ethan. 

For Ethan who has been isolating himself and absolutely independent that he pushed everyone away, and Skye being stubborn and not in-the-least shy on saying what she thought openly, fighting and bickering was unpreventable.

Skye saw through the walls that Ethan has built around himself. Drawn to him, slowly, their friendship started to turn into something else.


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2020
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