My Crush Is quite

Life is too short to start living ,me I am a person that fell in love with a genius but is too scared to let it out . I keep it a secret from my friends and family . I would lay under the covers in the morning telling myself I can tell him it is okay if he does not like me back . I am just a young girl lost in a big world with one secret that is too big to let out . My parents tell me I am too young to start liking people and I should keep my mind in my schoolwork.

In the morning when I get to school I walk to my locker get all my books and walk to my class upstairs. I walk past his class trying to pull my tummy in so I don't look fat. Each time I pass I want to look back. His eyes, hair ,face and everything makes my day even better . All I have to tell is my soft little lamb. He will keep all my secrets in and not to let them out. My life is going on and it stops when I pass him.

It is the next day I think I should try something new and I hold my tummy in and I lift my shirt up maybe he will notice me. But no this is not me,just be myself . Even if I did walk like this he will never notice ,I am invisible to him.

Sometimes I think to myself should I kill myself maybe he will see me in heaven but no I will go too hell if I do......