Troye was ready. Near the debut of his TFIOS song, he was absolutely prepared to come out to everyone. His family already knew, but the rest of the world had no idea. However, before he could hit 'Upload', his anxiety got the best of him, and he couldn't do it. A year later and he's still in the closet, and banging on the doors to get out. Why is this so hard?
Lately Troye has nightmares. He wakes up nearly every night, a great fear overcoming him. When this happens, there's only one person who can calm him. Tyler Oakley. They decide maybe it could help Troye if he comes to visit for a while. Within hours, Troye is on a flight to Los Angeles. Troye couldn't be more excited, until he remembers something. He is gay, and the love of his life has no idea.
What will happen? What are the nightmares saying? Will Troye come out? What does Tyler think about this whole thing? Will Tyler move on before Troye can confess his true feelings? Read "My song to you" to find out!
Troyler is perff♡
"I know I probably shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't be disappointed or angry that he no longer loves me the way he used to. I know it's my fault, after all I was the one to make the choice. But if I could go back and choose again, I want him to know that he would always be my pick. I was foolish. I was young. I let fame get to my head. Why must you Remind Me of the past that I want to forget so desperately.
I should've chose him.
I should've held him closer.
I should've told him that I loved him.
But, is it possible that through it all, I can chose again?"
*Mentions of abuse-- both verbal and sexually. Depression and self hatred a subject to be aware of. No form of self harm or eating disorder. Possible character death both major and minor. Any other warnings will be placed before the chapter begins. Hope you enjoy.*
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~ note: this fic is like my baby it's been through so much shit and i know it's not the best writing you'll ever read but i wrote it in a very dark time in my life and my mood- it reflects a lot off of the plot and the descriptors used. please be kind and know that im growing and so is my writing ability everyday. ilysm. enjoy ~