My Heart Hates Me
Ryusensei2000
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  • Reads 667,810
  • Votes 29,923
  • Parts 75
  • Time 7h 50m
Ryusensei2000
Complete, First published Sep 12, 2018
Mature
comedydarkdramafantasyfictionhumorjapanmarriagemysteryphilippinesromanceryusakuradathriller
"When the first snow hits the ground- Your wish will come true" 
A little girl from a small, unknown village in Germany, a little boy from the huge city of Tokyo in Japan-Their marriage was fixed before they opened their eyes into this world.

Tied down to each other, they are each other's prisoners. A prison they can't escape until death hits them-They make a paradise of nothing. After 25 years, they meet. He cheats on her, he hates her, he only makes her miserable, he wants her to disappear... Unless she finally does. They can't have each other.

"He has to die for her, for her to live for herself" 

They are wrapped up in someone else's webs and only the first snow can save them from this world where they don't belong. They fight, love, hate, break, they are hurting but they don't know why. All they know is that they are doing everything wrong-- Cause this marriage was never meant to be. But can Fate change when life and death collide and their hearts struggle to meet? Find out in this psychological thriller!

"Nobody cares unless you're beautiful... Or dead,"

Life is the art of dying
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