Finding Silence
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Dear Journal/ Readers,
Since this is my first time on here, I'll introduce myself. My name is Emily, I am 23 years old and am a life long booknerd. Fangirling is my idenity and I am overly sensitive Introvert. I also have mild autism - so every sense for me is heightened ten times.
I struggle everday with all the loud noises and extroverted people out there. The only thing that, keeps me sane is my fandoms. I am in so many fandoms from The 100 to Skam. I am also obsessed with gay ships e.g. Wilson,Robron,Paulson,Evak,Malec etc.
Read below for my latest thoughts.
Lately so much has happened and it's all happening so fast. My mind feels scrambled and I can't hear the silence.
It also doesn't help that , there is noise everywhere I turn. Like I said , my senses are heightened. For small normal noises e.g. running water, cars etc. are amplified- it hurts so much, it's like my ears bleed!!
I just want everything to down and be silent
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