What to do With a Girl Like Her...

After going through a storm filled with emotions of unpredictable blinding rage , tear jerking sadness, ups and downs like I'm just on the longest rollercoaster for 19 years I wonder how will I find it in me to give love and that once in a life time happiness if I've never received it or was taught how to give it. See I don't usually give myself to people willingly because I've always had my trust broken but I also was never scared to trust again its just the next time I wouldn't expect much from anyone, that way if I know its worth it I can just give in but if its not I wont get hurt in the process , So it came these crucial two things... My heart and My Virginity that I held back. Because I will never be the girl who got dumped after giving someone something so special to me that once taken changes everything for me.

I've been through and experienced things most people couldn't ever handle or understand. In my mind I wonder why and how I got though it all with what at the time I felt As though I had no one ... why was I able to endure and stick through so much. It took me 14 years to finally realize why and by the end you will see my story, struggles ,and the years of mental abuse , lose and more. I'm now 19 and I've survived a lot but could I survive falling in love , with my bestfriend brother

Now that I've shared , let me introduce myself My name is Reina white I'm a senior in High School . I plan to join the Air Force as a photo journalist . My best friend Devin Green we've been friend for 8 years now , he has a brother named Michael Green who I've always thought was so cute and had a little crush on but would never pursue because I would never do anything to jeopardize my friendship with Devin that's until this happened...