My soul-searching story of a dark past. Growing up in a strict Mormon household I slowly withdraw into a dark world of my own; self-mutilating, suicide attempts and self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. I go into therapy and discover repressed memories of being severely abused by my father. My world degrades into mental illness, becoming involved with a cult, confused sexual orientation and further drug and alcohol use, culminating in a year's exploration with heroin, cocaine and meaningless sex. My self-destruction is assured but when I become ill with a life-threatening illness I must fight to live and discover my salvation. Mature content.

Inspired by 'The A Team' by Ed Sheeran. It's too cold outside, For Angels to Fly When you realise that the one you love is broken, you break too. WARNING Contains drug use, abuse and sexual content. May trigger you. Picture credits to the rightful owners.

My thoughts

; saying goodbye has never been harder. completed. please read the tags first, thank u heads up for the cringe, bc like, this is a lil cringy but otherwise readable also, the chapters are little out of order, idk what happened and i can't fix it Q.Q