Sometimes we love people to much that's why we get stuck there standing on a line between giving up and seeing how much more we can take.
From the start She's holding on, holding on to something unsure. She still there waiting for the love that she's dreaming of, she doesn't let someone or something to fill that space. It takes a lot of patience to wait, you'll be needing a lot or courage to start a day and you have to be persistent in spite of difficulty over a prolonged period of time. She has many reasons to let go, she have all the right to turn her back but she couldn't because she love him, because not matter how badly he hurt her, she doesn't have the courage to hurt him because she love him and there is something inside her kept saying that he loves her too. And its was the ray of hope that she holds on.
Sabi nga nila, the only constant thing in this world is change, sabi nya dati sa sarili ay natatakot syang mag-let go dahil baka pag bumitiw sya ay biglang bumalik naman ang hinihintay nya, ngunit paano kung ang sinsabi nyang kinatatakutan nya dati ay maging isa na sa mga iniisip nyang choices?
The question is what will happen when she get's tired of waiting? what if she risk it all and there's nothing left with her? what will she do if she lost her patience? when she doesn't have courage left with her?
"no more lies neptalie!tell me..why did i marry you?!"
Alin ba ang mas masakit?yung tanung nya o yung paraan kung pano nya yun tinanong.either way,she dont care.
She look at those deep and no emotion eyes. "Believe me Ethan,hnd mo gugustuhing maalala.besides,it wont change anything."
"Yes it will!.." galit n hinawakan cya nito sa braso at hinila palapit sa katawan nito. "Stop playing games with me.i remember your face.and i remember a memory with you in bed while i fuck you so stop lying to my face.and goddammit i also remember pur fucking wedding!kaya savhin mo sakin ang dahilan kung bakit!dahil kahit anung gawin ko hnd ko matandaan!."
Neptalie smiled bitterly. "Hnd mo na kailangan malaman.kung tuluyan mo akong maalala so be it.but i wont tell you anything.this is your life.your wolrd and i will never ba a part of it.lalayo ako kung yan ang kailang pero wag n wag mo na akong guguluhin." Pilit nyang binawi ang braso n hawak nito.
Nasa itsura nito ang tinitimping galit.kilala nya ito.kahit sa nawawala nitong alaala alam ni neptalie na kaya parin niyang controlin ang emosyon nito.
Malungkot nya itong tinitigan bago humakbang paatras. "alam ko hnd n dapat aq bumalik."
"Then why are you here Nepy?.."
-'Shades of Sins'