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HisBeautifulMess
Complete, First published Jul 20, 2012
Mature
abuseburningcutcuttingdepressionfictionhealinghighschoolhopehurtlovereasonsrelationshipromanceromancestoriesschoolsuicidesuicideattemptsuicidepreventiontexttospeech
After an incident three months ago and her parent's divorce, Reina Caverly finds a way to cope: cutting herself. Her mother's a workaholic, her sister is an out of control teenage girl, and her dad disappeared from the face of the planet. She can't even tell her two best friends, Joshua and Megan, about her problems.   

Then she meets young and mysterious Calvin Young about to commit suicide by jumping from her school's rooftop which surprised Reina. He's rich; he's handsome for his age, and does well at school, so why? Why would someone who has everything want to kill himself? Everyone has a dark secret, even Calvin who seems to have the world. 
   
Can Reina and Calvin learn to speak up about their issues?
Can they find their reasons to live?
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"One day you'll leave me. You don't want a girl with a rape story," I said as I desperately tried to stop my sobs and hiccups.  "You deserve someone who is prettier and more stable then me." 
"Mon ange ," he whispered to me lightly as he held my tear-stained face. I looked at him and my breath shortened as I met his intense look. 
"I don't want anyone else," he said, "because I just want you."

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WARNING: Story contains rape, self-harm, and suicidal ideation.
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