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Complete, First published Jul 20, 2012
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After an incident three months ago and her parent's divorce, Reina Caverly finds a way to cope: cutting herself. Her mother's a workaholic, her sister is an out of control teenage girl, and her dad disappeared from the face of the planet. She can't even tell her two best friends, Joshua and Megan, about her problems.   

Then she meets young and mysterious Calvin Young about to commit suicide by jumping from her school's rooftop which surprised Reina. He's rich; he's handsome for his age, and does well at school, so why? Why would someone who has everything want to kill himself? Everyone has a dark secret, even Calvin who seems to have the world. 
   
Can Reina and Calvin learn to speak up about their issues?
Can they find their reasons to live?
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"One day you'll leave me. You don't want a girl with a rape story," I said as I desperately tried to stop my sobs and hiccups.  "You deserve someone who is prettier and more stable then me." 
"Mon ange ," he whispered to me lightly as he held my tear-stained face. I looked at him and my breath shortened as I met his intense look. 
"I don't want anyone else," he said, "because I just want you."

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WARNING: Story contains rape, self-harm, and suicidal ideation.
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Every scar has a story but Cary Douglas isn't talking. SCARS trilogy vol. 1. Cary learned a long time ago that secrets and silence equal survival and he's kept his promise to his family ever since. So when the clean-cut new kid starts paying attention to him at school, it's a problem. Cary is sure he can't afford to care about one more person, but Jon White's persistent kindness is cracking him open. Every smile has a cost and Jon White is tired of paying it. It's never been easy to be the oldest son of Pastor White, and keeping it together when the bully at his new school is in his face every day is almost more than he can do. He has just one question - where is God when everything is shit? - and so far nobody's answering. This is a novel about what happens when the silence breaks - about faith and family, suffering and doubt and the answer to Jon's question. ☆Featured on Wattpad's @ProfileMentalHealth 'A New Day' reading list☆ ☆Winner of the Read4Read Awards Best Teen Fiction☆ SCARS Trilogy book one. This is the introduction to Cary, Jon & Curt and the world of my other novels. Set in 2007 -ish, the guys are 15 and 16 respectively. Cary is straight and the other two aren't saying. Cover photo by Yuri_Arcurs. Used with permission. Contains mature language, and subject matter related to abuse, self-harm, and suicide. All rights reserved. Created for Wattpad. If you are reading this work on another site, this work has been stolen and you are at risk of viruses and malware!

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