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HisBeautifulMess

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abuse burning cut cutting depression fiction healing highschool hope hurt love reasons relationship romance romancestories school suicide suicideattempt suicideprevention texttospeech

After an incident three months ago and her parent's divorce, Reina Caverly finds a way to cope: cutting herself. Her mother's a workaholic, her sister is an out of control teenage girl, and her dad disappeared from the face of the planet. She can't even tell her two best friends, Joshua and Megan, about her problems.   

Then she meets young and mysterious Calvin Young about to commit suicide by jumping from her school's rooftop which surprised Reina. He's rich; he's handsome for his age, and does well at school, so why? Why would someone who has everything want to kill himself? Everyone has a dark secret, even Calvin who seems to have the world. 
   
Can Reina and Calvin learn to speak up about their issues?
Can they find their reasons to live?
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"One day you'll leave me. You don't want a girl with a rape story," I said as I desperately tried to stop my sobs and hiccups.  "You deserve someone who is prettier and more stable then me." 
"Mon ange ," he whispered to me lightly as he held my tear-stained face. I looked at him and my breath shortened as I met his intense look. 
"I don't want anyone else," he said, "because I just want you."

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WARNING: Story contains rape, self-harm, and suicidal ideation.All Rights Reserved

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Beautifully Broken by eeviyaanawritesss

16 year old Alyne Montgomery's life is far from perfect. With her playing the role of a perfect family, even with her mother dead and perfect brother at collage. Leaving her with an angry father. Whose abuse is getting harder to handle. She wants to get away from the pain, but yet thinks she deserves it. So she tells no one. She didn't tell her old friends that ditched her when things got hard, she didn't tell that one teacher that had asked her if she was okay after the accident . Alyne has no one. The last person to even love her in the slightest is 6 feet underground because of her. The walls around her heart just keep getting bigger, while her will to live gets smaller. Then walk in Mason Gray. The schools typical bad boy that has enough anger in him to fill the world. A boy who spikes a sudden interest in the girl that flinches when a hand is raised and try's to go unnoticed. But once noticed how can you unnoticed her? Mason makes it his new life goal to break down Alyne's walls and figure out what she's hiding behind them. Two people hurting finding each other in the mix of it all. Will it bring them together, or tear them apart? -TRIGGER WARNING- This story contains mentions of suicide, self harm, abuse, violence, depression, alcohol use, death. If you do not feel comfortable reading about these topics please do not read this book!!

Falling for my Best Friend by AmberRose85

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Her Last Wish by AnonymouslyUnknown27

Tiana Collin's life is horrible and she knows this. With an abusive father and a druggie for a mother and with absolutely no friends at school, she didn't think her life meant much. So she decided to end it. But before she ended her life, she wants to feel loved. To feel cared for. To feel. So she decides to date one of the most popular boys in school, Tyson Bent, who she knows has a bet with his best friend. A bet to get her to sleep with him. She knows he doesn't really care about her. But sometimes it's nice to pretend. After all, she's only supposed to be with him for a week. After that... well after that she's not even going to be alive. Tyson had it all, the popularity, the looks, the money, everything. And he never missed a chance to flaunt his supposed perfection. Another thing about him is that he never backs down from a dare. So when his best friend dares him to sleep with a girl named Tiana, how can he refuse? But when he reads her diary, he has another mission. A mission completely different from the dare. A mission far more important than a dare. An added bonus being the chance to finally find out who he is and not who everyone else wishes for him to be. A chance to grow into the person he could be. TW// suicide, suicidal ideation, self harm, abuse, mention of drug addiction

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Secret Mind ✓ by sadlyish

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Suffocating by Writerandreader17

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Dying Flame (Editing) by Mystical_Angel13

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HOTHEAD by YA_fanatic24

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16 year old Alyne Montgomery's life is far from perfect. With her playing the role of a perfect family, even with her mother dead and perfect brother at collage. Leaving her with an angry father. Whose abuse is getting harder to handle. She wants to get away from the pain, but yet thinks she deserves it. So she tells no one. She didn't tell her old friends that ditched her when things got hard, she didn't tell that one teacher that had asked her if she was okay after the accident . Alyne has no one. The last person to even love her in the slightest is 6 feet underground because of her. The walls around her heart just keep getting bigger, while her will to live gets smaller. Then walk in Mason Gray. The schools typical bad boy that has enough anger in him to fill the world. A boy who spikes a sudden interest in the girl that flinches when a hand is raised and try's to go unnoticed. But once noticed how can you unnoticed her? Mason makes it his new life goal to break down Alyne's walls and figure out what she's hiding behind them. Two people hurting finding each other in the mix of it all. Will it bring them together, or tear them apart? -TRIGGER WARNING- This story contains mentions of suicide, self harm, abuse, violence, depression, alcohol use, death. If you do not feel comfortable reading about these topics please do not read this book!!