Dear Self
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Last published Thu, Sep 27, 2018
Ano ba ang gusto ko?
why i can't find myself?
Why i'm afraid of lossing you?
Why i am like this?
Does myself enough to me.
Why do i have too many questions.
Kailan kaya, kailan ko kaya mahahanap ang sagot sa mga tanong ko.
Or should i give up to life?
life is cruel
I love my own life
But does life loves me?
Or life hated me?
Should i give up?
But i have a millions reason to live.
I'm fighting but is that enough?
I don't know what to do anymore.
Help me! help me!
Life is cruek and I need you.
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I always wondered how it feels like to be rich. How it feels like to walk with a luxury bag clinging on your arm. How it feels like to have jewelries to make you shine. Maybe I am ambitious. Maybe I am materialistic, because I never experienced having any of it. I needed to work for myself. I needed to support my study because I have no one. I don't have anyone to support me that's why I didn't know how to act and how to grow myself as a person. No one guides me to the right path. No one is there for me. I am always alone. That's why when I meet this rich handsome man, I did everything to get close to him. I flirted with him. I tried to catch his attention. In short, nagpapansin ako. All I thought, kapag malapit na kami sa isa't isa mararanasan ko na ang magandang buhay pero hindi e. Mas lulubog pa pala ako sa kaniya. Mas babagsak pa pala ako. Luluha lang pala ako at masasaktan. Bakit kaya hindi umaayon sa akin ang tadhana? Why did it choose to give me bunch of challenges and problems and not happiness? Kahit saglit lang. Kahit patikim lang ng saglit na kaligayan. Gano'n ba kahirap ibigay sa akin iyon at kailangan pang ipagdamot sa akin?
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