time will tell

people always told me I was nothing a disappointment that I wasn't worth their time of course they weren't wrong we always try to hide I pretend that they don't mean it that it's not true but really it is that's how life works there's two steps two of the same steps actually you're either disappointment or your failure or you're winner and if you're neither you're nothing there's no reason for you to be here if you're neither if you're neither then you're nothing and people can't remember something that never existed so when people stop remembering you never truly existed and if you never existed then there's nothing to forget and then you turn into it you most feared you turn into a symbol apathetic nest and weakness and that's it you're over never shown to be back again no regrets taken from you but no hopes either you probably don't understand this and I get it it's cool you don't have to understand you just have to listen and that's the simplest thing you can do just listening is easier than understanding cuz to truly understand something you first have to listen but if you don't listen correctly it all comes with for you I know what you're thinking this probably makes no sense to you cuz you're probably one of those smart asses right will get this everybody has this feeling the feeling that you'll end up meaningless with nothing to show nothing to make you you and it scares us more than anything else and when you finally listen to that voice it all comes Crashing Down so you ignore it it only gets deeper in your head pounding at the door and your mind until finally you open the door and that's when you finally turn into what you fear the most you turn into a nothing but if you already were one there's nothing to turn into because all your life you are nothing non-existent no one noticed you and no one needed you and that's pretty scary isn't it

- maka albarn
2018 October 20th