my suicidal diary

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OK, this book kinda explains how I feel most of the time but some of it may be a bit made up I just couldn't think of anything to write 

warning: this book may be suicidal as it says in the heading!

enjoy my shitty book/diary!All Rights Reserved

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how i feel
Sun, Sep 30, 2018

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how i feel
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