Certainty Of Midnight
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emotion
ɪˈməʊʃ(ə)n/
noun
a strong feeling deriving from one's circumstances, mood, or relationships with others.
A snippet of a teenage girl's mind.
Excuse the hormonal anger.
I started this book when I was thirteen or fourteen. I publish, unpublish and republish so much, that I don't even know when this began, nor when it'll end. I wrote about people who were my friends, ranted about someone who would become my best friend, about myself and my disarticulated experiences. There's a million drafts that'll never see the light of day, moments of my life saved in a stupid format I chose for aesthetic and can't bring myself to now abandon.
What I'm trying to say is, this disjointed story is a public diary. A manifestation of me changing and growing and lapsing into the past. It's hardly even poetry, or organised thoughts.
Please be gentle with them.
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