thoughts
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- Votes 9
- Parts 7
Ongoing<5 mins
Last published Sat, Oct 27, 2018
cover photo: instagram.com/fae (living for these pics might ecplain later)
--> idk either okay. just a collection of random shit i guess.
DISCLAIMERS: (bc theyre needed)
- homophobes click away cuz possibly maybe kinda gay-ish subjects. i mean idk. maybe...
- please answer my unslated weird ass unasked for opinions with yours!!
- i'm Dutch so sometimes vocabulary doesnt agree with my emotions and i might write in dutch... will try and translate later
-->most importantly;
i overthink... like... a lot. i get extremely emotional attachted and am extremely dramatic. therefore, these thoughts are written in emotional moments and make no sense at all. hope u enjoy anyways!
Oh and also i suffer from extreem laziness and chronical grammar typo's so pls just report em. Or dont idc. Luv
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