Depression: A condition of general emotional dejection and withdrawal; sadness greater and more-prolonged than that warranted by any objective reason. Bulimia: A habitual disturbance in eating behavior. Anorexia: Loss of appetite and inability to eat. It seems like when one thing happens, everything else follows behind it. Worlds crumble before they even begin to blossom, just as people do. It's scary to think how many people suffer from their own thoughts. Vanessa Allen, a seventeen year old girl living in Middle-town Connecticut with her Grandmother while her father is away, struggles with inner demons. "Why don't you ever eat?" His voice sliced through me like a knife to my bare skin. I felt goosebumps rise on my arms, and my hair stand up on the back of my neck. I was caught off guard by his question. My breath hitched as I tried to think of an answer. His brown eyes peered into mine, and for a second I forgot where I was. I forgot that he had asked me a question, a very serious one at that. His eyes were much darker than usual, they were stern, serious. I knew I wasn't getting away from this one without any scratches. "Why don't you mind your own business?" I scoffed at him, hoping he'd let it go. I felt his fingers grip around my skin as I tried to walk away. I noticed the eyes of our classmates staring and I thought dying would be so much better than this. "Jason, please." I pleaded, I knew that if I didn't get out of here soon, I'd have a meltdown right here and now. "Fine, let's go then." He let go of my arm, taking my hand in his instead and leading me towards the exit of our school, all eyes still on us. I wanted to scream at him, I wanted to hit him, but that wouldn't help this shit of a situation I'm in right now. Jason is played by Brad Simpson, and you can use your imagination for the rest of the characters.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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