Cupidity

I open my eyes as if im opening them for the first time. I gasp for air as if im trying to reach for that last aching breathe, while you swim in the seas of uncertainty , but air the air I am feening I can't quite get it. Like if In was under water for a long period of time, with a ton of solid gold weight holding me under, anchoring me like a ship at shore. And then it is like all my memories good and bad from every area of my life, are just put in fast foward and playing on a movie screen. As if my life was movies them selves. Scenes on a screen for me to relive. But all of a sudden they are put on pause. And I realise what I must to do again ....