Me and Myself

Is it bad that I lose everything that I love? Is it bad that I hurt so bad that I cry every night? Is it bad that I'm scared to trust anyone? Is it bad that I have a hard time believing people? Is it bad that I just don't want to try to be happy anymore? Is it bad that I want to be numb? Is it bad that I can't feel good because if I don't feel sad I don't feel sane, or I can't feel anything else? Is it bad that I cry and can't stop the tears from falling? Is it bad that I have been lied to by the people I trusted? Is it bad that I don't want to live anymore? Will I ever be able to answer these questions?