"We were never made for each other ,
That's what I thought when you came into my life like a storm which I never saw it coming .
We were so bad together , worse than a hurricane , it was so wrong ,
Worse than a disaster , it was never meant to last long .
Yet , the only thing stuck in my head were the fights that we fought ,
Playing on replay , still fresh in my thoughts.
Or catching you red handed staring at me with desire ,
Setting my heart on fire like a bonfire.
And that's what I wanted right now ,
For you to fill all those blank spaces that you left somehow .
I want to tell him , that I missed him so much ,
And feel myself losing under his touch.
He was never the brightest star , shinning up on the sky ,
But he gave me a reason to survive.
I see myself in a pathetic state and ask why ?."
- Toxic, Calliope
A/N: I am no poet, just someone who loves to play with words.
There are a lot of things you don't really think about until they happen to you. Take rape, for instance. I always thought, "That won't happen to me. I have a boyfriend. I trust him. He would never take advantage of me like that..." I couldn't have been more wrong.
Love in this day and age is often confused for manipulation and abuse. The warning signs are here. The things we say will tell us everything that is wrong. You are worth more than what you think you are. It's not your fault. If they tell you otherwise, get out. Burn the bridge.
Always remember someone is waiting for you to walk into their life. Someone needs you. Someone loves you.
Getting away from all of the wrong people and finding the right ones could save you.
I can promise you right now that it saved me.
These are the journal entries and selected poems from my first experience of love that left a unpleasant taste in my mouth- quite literally. I am putting this out for the whole world to see because I hope everyone will learn from my experience. People can see.
We have no excuses to continue living our lives in ignorance.
...WARNING... HARMFUL THEMES INCLUDING MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND RAPE. THIS HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT. RECOVERY AND AWARENESS IS THE PURPOSE OF SHARING. DO NOT READ IF THESE THEMES ARE OFFENSIVE OR HARMFUL TO YOU.