The Antagonistic Protagonist

Antagonist, the bad person in a story, the one that the readers hate so much, the one always being cursed to die. Did anyone ever thought the emotions they ever had.

When she felt her first love it was like cherry blossoms blooming to its greatest bloom but then this was the same reasons she felt the shattering pieces of her own heart.

years later she accidentaly met this first love. Discovering that the person had amnesia because of an accident she had decided to pursue this first love. She broke all chances for the man's sparking love for others, using any terms for the man to be hers, living like an antagonist in a romance drama. Did anyone asked her what she felt?