Narcotic ► Twilight

"you don't like yourself. you never did. but you admire yourself. and you cling to that, it's all you've got- and you're afraid that if it would change, if you would change, you'll lose what makes you special.
well, I've got news for you, Eric. being miserable doesn't make you better.
it just makes you miserable."

NARCOTIC

noun

1. any of a class of substances that blunt the senses, as opium, morphine, belladonna, and alcohol, that in large quantities produce euphoria, stupor, or coma, that when used constantly can cause habituation or addiction, and that are used in medicine to relieve pain, cause sedation, and induce sleep.
2. anything that exercises a soothing or numbing effect or influence