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Every year without you... [Book 1]

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Every day, every week, every month, every year that passed. It was torture for little Evan. Ever since his friend left town. Ever since his dad beat him while his mother passed out from pain. Ever since his dad left him and his mother to die. Every time he passed the photos of his "Happy" looking family. Every time he found pictures of himself and his old friend. Whenever he remembered...he felt terrible emotions. Worthless. Self-hate. Depression. Anxiety. Fear. Trauma. Abandonment. Explosive. And worst of all...alone.All Rights Reserved

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