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Collapsing In On Myself

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When everything that mattered in life is dead and gone, and all that is left has gone to crap, there is no point in living.

And if Carly Uqualla, a confused native american girl living in PA amish country knows one thing about life, it's just that.

Is there something that could stop her from making a decision she cant take back? Does this something come in the form of a pretty six foot five ginger with brown freckles speckling his nose? Oh and that little dimple peaking out his left cheek? 🙃

 Is he too late to save her, or is he just in time?  

...

This has sensitive content such as mention of suicide, attempted suicide, abuse, and rape. If you cannot handle it or are sensitive to such subjects, don't read my story. 

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!

I'm not good at writing, I just do for fun. However, if you feel the stupid or strange inclination to steal my horrible writing, please dont. We dont like copycats. 

Thank you! Enjoy xxAll Rights Reserved

abusiveparent badgirl bwwm fiction goodboy love nightmares ptsd romance softboy suicidalthoughts suicide suicideattempt teenfiction teenromance youngadult younglove

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