This, in case you were wondering, is a collection and record of the spontaneous poems and written pieces I write, for me. I use writing to channel a large part of my emotions, and the pieces you may read are a consequence of this. The reason I share these pieces are to: keep a record for myself; and let anyone who is feeling the same way as I am sometimes, know that they are never, ever alone. Follow the thoughts of a moody, distressed teenager through the ups and downs in her life. Trigger warning: includes references and depictions of depression, anxiety , suicide, self harm and mental illness.