This Isn't Me.
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It's not what they want. It's your distraction. The way to get out of this dark hole. Slowly fading away. Drowning in your own tears, and darkness. Breaking promises like breaking a tooth-pick. "Never again", you say, "Last time", you try to convince yourself. How long have you kept that going? Also, don't forget, food is like a disease, and it wants to poison you. So don't eat. I want to stop eating. I want to stop speaking. I want to stop smiling. But I'm afraid someone will notice and do something stupid like...save me. But then again I think, who is my hero. I remember, I'm alone. If she has a smile, she's okay, right? But that girl, laughing and having a good time is dying inside. Hides everything because she fears pity. Worthless Broken Nothing Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels. I'm Nylah Ellie Hanes, and I believe in bad endings. :) Believable?
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