I miss having someone to share my life with.
So much has happened since you left me. I'm changing and I'm growing so much, but it feels insignificant because I have nobody to share it with anymore. I just want someone who wants to know what's happening in my life. I want someone who is proud of me. I want someone to love and support me through anything.
I thought you were that person. I thought we were going to spend the rest of our lives together.
But I thought wrong.
After everything we'd been through together, you left me. You don't care about me anymore. You don't love me anymore. You don't feel proud of me or want to know what's happening in my life.
If you did, you would have stayed.
Instead, you chose to leave me.
I don't know how I'm ever going to love or trust anybody ever again. I loved and trusted you with everything I had. You promised that you would always be here for me and that no matter what, you would never leave me.
You lied.
I don't know how to get over this. I don't know how to heal from feeling so betrayed, abandoned, and hurt. I don't know if I'll ever truly heal from this. I think this will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I don't think I'm ever going to feel whole again
SPIN-OFF CERITA AISFA ( CINTA DALAM DOA)
Mendapat restu untuk bersatu dengan orang yang kita perjuangkan selama bertahun-tahun tentu menjadi hal menyenangkan bukan? Namun, bagaimana jika cinta kita sepihak? Bahkan dalam keadaan dia mencintai orang lain?
"Saya nggak cinta sama kamu. Walaupun kita sudah menikah, bukan berarti saya akan menerimamu seutuhnya." (Syafa Izdihar)
"Sebagaimana saya mengajari anak-anak dini huruf hijaiyah, begitu juga saya akan mengajarimu jatuh cinta. Dari alif sampai ya' mesti ada proses yang harus dilalui dengan kesabaran." (Kazim Zeehan)
Tentang Kazim dan perjuangannya dan Syafa dengan rasa yang membuatnya melampaui semua batasannya.