Dear James (Jeamus) boyxboy

James and Seamus have been married for a few years now when they get get the news that Seamus has cancer. The doctor tells them that the Seamus likely won't live. James is devestated but all Seamus can think of is one thing - how him and his husband's entire relationship is based on lies told by Seamus. Seamus figures he can't tell James face to face or even when he's still alive about all the lies he's told in this relationship, so he starts writing a journal for James to read after he's deceased.