When I'm Dead
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"Some people think pain is only physical, but nothing can compare to the mental pain or the emotional pain. The pain where you feel your body shut down. The salty tears burning your eyes, the lump that's stuck in your throat from trying to hold back the liquid from pouring out your eyes. Not wanting to make a sound because you don't want to burden anyone with your problems. When you feel like you can't breathe. You're choking, gasping for a breath."
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