Lollipop // Phan
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MatureComplete Wed, Apr 3, 20191h 2m
Dan Howell has crippling anxiety, and as a way to cope is to suck on lollipops. And it's always pink or light blue lollipops. Dan's a very shy pastel kid, who's always has a flower crown atop his curly brown hair.
Phil Lester has always watched Dan from afar, to scared he would frighten the small boy. He has many tattoos and piercings, even his hair is dyed blue. One day he walks up to the roof of the high school, and sees Dan standing on the ledge about to jump.
They both don't fit into their highly religious town, and it drives them crazy.
There is smut.
*TRIGGER WARNINGS*
Depression, Anxiety, homophobe, Mentions of suicide, and Mentions of self harm
Please do not read if you are triggered by one or more of the things listed above.
•I am american, so I use american terms•
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