20 Things Before I Die
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Last published Tue, Jun 16, 2020
At first, I didn't think hate bothered me
Sure, I didn't self harm or cry about it.
But....
When I actually made real friends,
I realized how broken I was
And remember what happiness felt like
That's the thing about depression,
When you have depression, it envelopes you, you don't even notice it
So I'm glad I got out of it, and did 20 this before I died
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