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TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED

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adult comingofage deep firstlove grown heartbreak highschool hood hoodlove love lovelife mature monologue newbeginnings poem poet romance sad teen urban virgin

As a developing child i quickly learned that boys were just pointless means to an end. Love, Marriage, and Family were all empty concepts, that people use to fill the voids in their temporary lives. I couldn't be hurt. I'd never had a first love. I've never had sex. 

I was different from the others, Nobody could match my energy or feel my vibe. I've always had a deeper mind than those around me. I had felt like I was only made for my self, my own soulmate... you could say. I always gave out more love rather than what I would receive. No one could love me as hard as I could love them.

until i met him....

I now understood the difference between loving and being in love. He was the air to my lungs. My purpose for existing. When he died I lost apart of me, that couldn't be replaced. 

"Cold. My heart. 
  Cold. My soul.
Our love is now a distant memory of what we used to have..." 

I just want to love.... and To be loved.All Rights Reserved

adult comingofage deep firstlove grown heartbreak highschool hood hoodlove love lovelife mature monologue newbeginnings poem poet romance sad teen urban virgin

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