TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED

As a developing child i quickly learned that boys were just pointless means to an end. Love, Marriage, and Family were all empty concepts, that people use to fill the voids in their temporary lives. I couldn't be hurt. I'd never had a first love. I've never had sex.

I was different from the others, Nobody could match my energy or feel my vibe. I've always had a deeper mind than those around me. I had felt like I was only made for my self, my own soulmate... you could say. I always gave out more love rather than what I would receive. No one could love me as hard as I could love them.

until i met him....

I now understood the difference between loving and being in love. He was the air to my lungs. My purpose for existing. When he died I lost apart of me, that couldn't be replaced.

"Cold. My heart.
Cold. My soul.
Our love is now a distant memory of what we used to have..."

I just want to love.... and To be loved.