~To those who left me ~
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I've lost many friends over years whenever it be to coincidence or choice sometimes a force of a circumstance. The only fear I have is the fear of forgetting, you see I cross streets without looking and explore abandoned places , I do things that are described as underage ir illegal because I'm an adrenaline junky, and i might sound over the top but don't get me wrong, i go to school and usually don't skip classes i attend army cadets and have goals but no im young and i love mking intensional mistakes because that's who I am but forgetting people or memories of simple facts terrifies me because my experiences made me who Iam and if I forget will I still be me ?
And i decided to write about it i decided to write to my dear strangers i share handful or more memories with. <3
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