My Life
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MatureOngoing9m
Last published Sat, Nov 24, 2018
Since I'm not sure how I'll be remembered & soon I'll be taking that road, letting it all go to waste. Well, it was a waste to begin with. Wasn't really living a life that I wanted. Feels like I can't go on anymore. Though I have people that wouldn't want me to go, it's just where those people are, though. The ones I live with, are okay with me dying, while the ones far away from me, don't want that. So it's about fighting a war you can't even win. A hope that always dies. & no miracle. Just endless pain & suffering.
Read it at your own risk. It has triggering settings. Such as abuse, suicidal thoughts & self harm.
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