Real or Not Real (ON HOLD)
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Ongoing9m
Last published Mon, Jun 2, 2014
"Is this thing on?"
"Yes, we are ready when you are."
"Ok well I guess you could call this a sort of therapy." I say to the red flashing light. The camera focuses and unfocused until my face is clear. "My name is Ally Dutch and this is my wonderful life story." I say with heavy sarcasm. "My doctors thought this would help me decipher what was real and not real in my life. So if your watching this you must be a doctor or really bored." I fidget with my hands.
"Ally keep focused." the man says to me. I roll my eyes.
"Ok then let's start with my fabulous seventh birthday." I say with a fake smile.
Well here goes nothing and I begin the story of the end of my sanity.
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