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Real or Not Real (ON HOLD)

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Leituras 92
Votos 2
Capítulos 2
Tempo 9m

bipolar depression disorder epilepsy love schizophrenia schizophrenic

"Is this thing on?" 

"Yes, we are ready when you are."

"Ok well I guess you could call this a sort of therapy." I say to the red flashing light.  The camera focuses and unfocused until my face is clear.  "My name is Ally Dutch and this is my wonderful life story." I say with heavy sarcasm.  "My doctors thought this would help me decipher what was real and not real in my life.  So if your watching this you must be a doctor or really bored." I fidget with my hands.

"Ally keep focused." the man says to me.  I roll my eyes.

"Ok then let's start with my fabulous seventh birthday." I say with a fake smile.

Well here goes nothing and I begin the story of the end of my sanity. 

A "Black Box" fanfic.  Please Read!Todos os Direitos Reservados

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Human minds are so interesting to study and to play with. They can make people go mad. And I know that all the best people are crazy; because crazy means fun; and I'm a funny person. I soon started to believe I was someone else. I convinced myself that the old me was gone and in his place stood a new young man with a different past, different friends and different thoughts. The problems occurred when I couldn't recall some important personal information. At least that's what they've told me. It has never been an issue to me though, but they said my so-called "problem" has reached a different level of a mental disorder. It wasn't a game anymore, it was something dysfunctional. They locked me up in a Mental Illness Clinic and I have been here for the last 3 years. They call me Thomas. Thomas Sangster. PS: English is not my native language; if you see nonsense or very bad mistakes, please notice me :)

DELUSIONS, de annabethgranger666

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Dead Water || Thomas Sangster AU cover

DELUSIONS cover

Stand By Me (lexi and fezco fanfic, euphoria) COMPLETED cover

Sigh【Ein X Reader】[ Completed ] cover

Psychopath [solangelo au] cover

Unraveling Secrets cover

Locked In cover

𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 | ✔︎ cover

Dead Water || Thomas Sangster AU

Human minds are so interesting to study and to play with. They can make people go mad. And I know that all the best people are crazy; because crazy means fun; and I'm a funny person. I soon started to believe I was someone else. I convinced myself that the old me was gone and in his place stood a new young man with a different past, different friends and different thoughts. The problems occurred when I couldn't recall some important personal information. At least that's what they've told me. It has never been an issue to me though, but they said my so-called "problem" has reached a different level of a mental disorder. It wasn't a game anymore, it was something dysfunctional. They locked me up in a Mental Illness Clinic and I have been here for the last 3 years. They call me Thomas. Thomas Sangster. PS: English is not my native language; if you see nonsense or very bad mistakes, please notice me :)