My sunshine in the dark

It startles me how on earth I could look at her and feel all the best things in the world. How her sparkling smile would make my heart feel warm. How whenever I felt dull and dreary, looking at her face would take away all my sadness. And her lustrous eyes would give me hope for the best. And now, at this moment, reality agitates me. It hurts me immensely how someone whose presence would light up my mood. Someone who has put her everything behind for me. Someone who has just been there during all the thick and thins for me. Someone who is in hazard now. Standing between the edge of life and death. Fighting for life. And I , I can save her. I can bring her back to life. I can give her what I have been owing her all this time. But it sucks, and it kills me deep down that one chance of saving her is going in vain. And I cant do possibly anything.