My Past Will Be Mine Again
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Last published Mon, Dec 3, 2018
P R O L O G U E
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Three years have passed when I gathered the courage to leave you
I had never been so lonely like this before
I always went to bed like a kid and hugging the stuff toy that you gave me
Imagining that it was you inside my arms
Repeating the same image of your face inside my head
Longing for your hands in the darkness
Whenever I opened my eyes, I wished to see the gentleness of your stare
The soothing smile that curved your lips
The same words that made my heart sway and shiver ever so slightly
I found the strength to live my life away from you
Hoping that someday I'll be able to go back and live happily with you
But in a twist of fate, everything turned out to be hopeless
During the times when I almost died as I longed for you
Not even a single memory of me slipped into your mind
You looked at me as if I never existed in your life
You treated me like a complete stranger that you have never met before
You gave me your cold stare as if I was a stupid girl crying in front
of you
I watched you as you walked away with another girl
Holding her just like how you held me before
Saying the silly nickname that I used to call with you
My mind kept wishing that I was the girl walking beside you
My heart pounded painfully as the door closed and you never turned back to look at me
You left me without a word
Without a considerate gesture
Without turning back to say good bye
Without a trace of path that you're going to take
Just like how exactly I left you before
-Xhayiana Chandria Ford
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