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Guilty Conscious

CharlotteTheSwed

Leituras 12
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Leituras 12
Votos 1
Capítulos 1
Tempo <5 mins

CharlotteTheSwed

Maduro

isuckatwriting lies mask suicidalthoughts

A suicidal's point of veiw and their life and how fast things can get lost from your grasp. How you think things are better only for that thought to be ripped away from you.  

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You already know you're  a monster. You're conscious  telling you just makes you dig deeper and deeper, making it even more impossible to claw yourself back up. Slowly breaking apart by tiny pieces. You don't realize how fast you're disintegrating until you're remains are out of sight, no hope of getting them back. 
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Sounds lovely, I know. So because I'm the absolute biggest goody-two-shoes you'll ever meet, my English lit teacher gave me the challenge to write about death.

This is my firsy work so it obviously sucks. I'm so surprised you found this and thank you so much if you read it. I swear it will only take a moment of your time!😙😙❤Todos os Direitos Reservados

isuckatwriting lies mask suicidalthoughts

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Evolution

There are a lot of things you don't really think about until they happen to you. Take rape, for instance. I always thought, "That won't happen to me. I have a boyfriend. I trust him. He would never take advantage of me like that..." I couldn't have been more wrong. Love in this day and age is often confused for manipulation and abuse. The warning signs are here. The things we say will tell us everything that is wrong. You are worth more than what you think you are. It's not your fault. If they tell you otherwise, get out. Burn the bridge. Always remember someone is waiting for you to walk into their life. Someone needs you. Someone loves you. Getting away from all of the wrong people and finding the right ones could save you. I can promise you right now that it saved me. These are the journal entries and selected poems from my first experience of love that left a unpleasant taste in my mouth- quite literally. I am putting this out for the whole world to see because I hope everyone will learn from my experience. People can see. We have no excuses to continue living our lives in ignorance. ...WARNING... HARMFUL THEMES INCLUDING MENTION OF SUICIDE, SELF HARM, AND RAPE. THIS HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT. RECOVERY AND AWARENESS IS THE PURPOSE OF SHARING. DO NOT READ IF THESE THEMES ARE OFFENSIVE OR HARMFUL TO YOU.