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The Gain of the Loss

PoisonousBeauty

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PoisonousBeauty

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"Up to 24 million of all ages and genders suffer from an eating disorder(anorexia, bulimia, binge-eating disorder)."

I never thought that stat would have anything to do with me. And, now, here I was, unable to look at myself in the mirror without seeing piles and pounds of fat that could be shed off. 'When I'm skinny, I'll stop,' I tell myself. But it never works. I'm still fat, I'm still ugly, and for some reason, I'm still eating.

I don't care if I die. I don't care if I starve myself to death, because that just means I succeeded. I want to take up the least amount of space I can. 

"The bones stick out and sing to my eyes, that beautiful light shines between my thighs, for I am finally as skinny as skinny can be."All Rights Reserved

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