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Eating cold tomato soup with a fork while thinking of ways to kill myself

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ana anorexia anxiety anxietydisorder bodydysmorphia depression eatingdisorder eatingdisorders ed mentalillness socialanxiety

Optimist: "the glass is half full"
Pessimist: "the glass is half empty"
Me: "lmao ok but how many calories tho"All Rights Reserved

ana anorexia anxiety anxietydisorder bodydysmorphia depression eatingdisorder eatingdisorders ed mentalillness socialanxiety

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