The Beast Inside

I sat down in my blue leather lounge chair, sipping a pop, listening to Norwegian metal, I remember the days when everyone was still around but they've all disappeared. I don't exactly have a roommate anymore. Mardav had I guess, disappeared last week after a few hours that I couldn't recollect what had happened. I remember waking up in the morning, starting it off with a can of monster on top of a can of beer and eating a sleeve of saltines. The rest was a blur but I had woken up with blood everywhere and the sound of sirens fading away. I called my mother, who, I guess the police had called earlier. There somehow was no proof of me harming Mardav, so I was left alone is a big space that I'm not sure i'll have for much longer. And that's only one instance. Is there something wrong with me?