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AmberPanicAtTheDisco

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Reads 87
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Parts 9
Time 46m

AmberPanicAtTheDisco

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Jaiden Holman is not the ordinary sixteen year old you'd expect. 

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"The adrenaline rush, it's a high I like. For some reason I find it enjoyable. The others get a vibe from me that spreads the word crazy all over the place. Who likes having a high like that? Each one I pop into my mouth fills my senses with joy. I know, I know... it's bad. The tingle my my throat, the feeling of a pill sliding down my esophagus, knowing you're rebelling on so many things. I feel like a warrior. Listen, if it wasn't for my brother I wouldn't be in this mess. I'm glad though that I was chosen for such a thing."

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Jaiden Holman is mentally psychotic and has a brother named, Anthony. Anthony is the number one drug dealer in New York City while his little brother, Jaiden is following in his footsteps. Their mother is a pot head while the father is a gambler and a drunk. The only way they can keep their apartment complex is by selling drugs in every destination they can. Between Jaiden and his love life and his personal life, he must find a way to become mentally stable  enough to manage himself.All Rights Reserved

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𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 & 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛

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