Do I even belong...?

This is to tell you how I feel when I'm left out on everything! I hate it...I'm lonely...I'm sacred....I'm....different. I hope if people read this they would understand me. I've always wished of being a cool kid when I got older, but I want to choose a path...leave my friends with people who are cool...or,...be with my friends and stay a loser X3. I want to choose this because...I hate my life of being alone... I hope everyone of you guys understand this.