Her eyes kept me caged, piercing through my soul, shining with unshed tears. She closed her eyes, taking a deep breath "you can't keep doing this. You can't push me away and expect me to come back when you apologise because whether you mean it or not, the things you say, they hurt, Elijah, so know that if you do this, if you push me away" her eyes opened, and it seemed they were made of steel "I won't come back again" it seemed to me that time slowed down.
I looked into her eyes, the same eyes that could take my breath away with just a single look and I remembered why I was doing what I was doing "I do mean it, Sage, you mean nothing to me" she stepped back and the look of betrayal on her face was enough to make me want to apologise for every sin I'd ever commit.
But I held myself back, reminding myself that I was doing this to protect her. That no matter how much I loved her we could never be together. It didn't matter that we both commit the same sins, mine were far worse, because I'd enjoyed it, she did it for the people she loved and that would always make her more pure than I deserved.
For she was a SAINT and I was a SINNER
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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